Doug-at-large

It looks like it’s been 2.5 years since my last real diet diary post, saying I needed to “tweek” my diet. After that it was like a slow-moving car wreck, and I gained everything back again. (sigh)

After so many rebounds can I lose weight again? Or is this like Susan Boyle’s theme song where “there are dreams that cannot be?”

I don’t really feel like I have the confidence to start journaling *yet again*.

Yet I know from decades of experience that it truly is the only way for me to lose weight.

Believe me, I’ve tried EVERYTHING else and the only thing that works is limiting calories and exercise. And the only way of limiting calories (for me anyway) is to journal everything I eat.

The problem is always that after 700 days or so… I just start rebounding.

But I really do have to lose weight, get blood sugar and cholesterol under control, etc. It’s like an emergency already.

In my “last great diet” that started in June, 2005 and last about 2 years, and where I got down to 79.8 kg before rebounding to 125 kg yet again I got very used to beginning my week on Fridays. It seemed comfortable – and a good safety blanket for the weekend starting with bonus calories.

Well, tomorrow is:

- Friday
- January 1st, 2010
- The start of a new decade

It’s like… a sign that I really should start.

Plus I have to travel to Boston in the late spring and will probably end up in economy class, which is really uncomfortable for a 13 hour flight at this size and weight. Another incentive.

So I feel like I should just throw out everything too fattening tonight (like a tube of mayo staring at me) and just somehow, some way find it in me to start my diet over yet again. Even though I have no idea how to deal with the rebound I feel waiting for me down the road. And without the confidence that “it’s time again!”

But I have to start somewhere, right?

doug